The Mixup.

We walk past each other as if we haven't been hurting
Forgetting time has granted us this mystical journey
Hiding our experiences due to pride
Forgetting we are living under the same sky
Silently carrying around darkness and sorrow
Fighting battles not promising tomorrow
Losing focus on all that is good
Leading souls to be misunderstood

-SMG

June 7th.

I loved you every second of the day
A devoted heart gone to waste
Though the outcome was far from ideal
I still can't seem to change how I feel
Walking away to save myself from the chaos
An unavoidable loss
A shattered wall of glass
Praying for the day this heartache will pass.

-SMG

Trial & Error

So tell me why you're here
Your temporary presence is what I truly fear
The typical routine
The one that leaves me intrigued & gives you cold feet
I'm well aware of it all
It starts with a step & ends with a fall
We weren't meant to turn out this way
Not here to argue or blame
Nor am I here to entertain
I see the disconnect in your eyes
The miscommunication and the lies
Tell me, is it worth one more try?

-SMG

1.

Tired of the ones avoiding love
The ones fearful of whats to come
Not accepting what has been done
Yearning for the one who's willing to commit
For him I would willingly submit
Elevate him like never before
Not once having to ask for more  
All this stored light and energy
Patiently waiting to be his remedy

-SMG
 

The Wave.

Be patient with me
I'm not as numb as I look
To be honest I'm just hurt
Hurt from the past, present & future
Hurt knowing there is no cure

I've been hit by this black wave
Causing me to feel far too much pain
I can't tell you when it's coming
but when it arrives there's no point in running

It washes over my entire soul
for reasons unknown
you won't be able to see it
but if you try to get close you just might feel it

I just ask that you remember how I am on my "happy days"
The days that make it easy for you to stay
The days when I have more than enough words to say 
Have sympathy, for I didn't ask to be this way

- SMG 

Dating someone who suffers from depression is not an easy task. Patience and strength are required more than ever. I wrote this poem years ago to help others understand what their loved ones are going through and so on..  1-800-273-8255.

360.

It was I who needed to grow
my heart needed to mold
you gave me your hand
& I foolishly chose to let go
forgive me my lover,
for selfishly choosing another
for bringing you all this trouble
it was you all along
the one worth it all
the tables haven't just turned
they have left a dent forever in my soul
still hopelessly waiting for your return
never meant for this love to burn 

- SMG 

Blindspot.

I had you on a pedestal called denial
Gave no effort at all, yet you were still admired
Unable to comprehend the true meaning behind your actions
Refused to see your ill intended schemes & tactics
Devoted my soul to your existence
Have yet to reach the phase of forgiveness.


-SMG

Dark Night.

Do my insecurities feed your self esteem?
Are you aware of the power you have over me ?
Your actions aren't even a game
They're the definition of hate

If you aren't here for my heart
Why are you here at all?
Do you enjoy watching me fall?
Do you know what loving you has cost?
Do you get off by seeing me lost?
Is it a sick thrill to know that for you I'd kill.

-SMG

Sunflower Hour.

Forgiving is how I gain my power
Watch me bloom like your girl's favorite flower
Gave her everything that was ours
Wondering why I fell for a coward
Sorry If I sound a little sour. 


-SMG

Rant turned into a draft.

When you look me in the eyes
Do you see all of your lies?
Do you see all of my wasted time?
A game I never wanted to play
Saw all the signs yet I chose to stay
Forgive me for being naïve
For believing we were on the same team
Letting go has never been my forte
But I truly believe I'll be okay
Your name no longer rings a bell
No longer got me living through hell
I guess Cole was right,
Cause I'm feelin like "things are goin to be alright"





to be cont.

PURPLE STAR

I often wonder if you hear me
Counting down the days till you're near me
What I would do to have one more convo
Often see you in my dreams, it's still not enough though

One more walk along the pier
Have yet to meet anyone as sincere
My pride pushed you away
Acted like I had nothing left to say
So confident we'd speak again
A year went by and nothing was said

Who would have thought a Sunday morning call
Would lead to changing it all
The way I love
The way I live
The way I see things
The way I say things
The way I look up to the sky and freeze
Knowing you're smiling down at me
You've forever enlightened me

I miss you and I thank you.
R.I.P to a king. 


- SMG

 

LITTLE REMINDERS.

Dark nights lead to better days
Heavy lies will soon fade away
Happiness is only a choice away
The light is bound to arrive
I will push forth and strive
I will focus on what is right
There is beauty in plain sight
I will continue to fight
I will conquer and reach new heights

These are all truths waiting to be manifested by you.
Repeat until you truly believe!
I promise this worked for me.



- SMG.